We are now at the half mark point of 2016 and what a transformative year it has been! There has been tons of laughter, love, and success, but with equal parts pain and tears. I've had to make decisions that I wasn't necessarily ready to make, and with those decisions watch my life take unexpected turns.
While in New Mexico, I met a Native American who told me that he and his tribe pray for rain, because after the storm there is growth. For the past few months, I felt a tugging, a pull in another direction that didn't feel comfortable to me. I ignored it, tried to move past it, live with it in hopes that it would go away. It's funny though, you can't ignore your gut, and if you try, moments in time will pass that will make you deal with what you're feeling, no matter how much you don't want to. I spent a long time not wanting to go through the rain, but a few weeks ago, even though I REALLY did not want it to, it started pouring.
Needless to say, it's been really hard, but I realize I have to go through this time of discomfort, and really feel it, in order to make positive changes for myself.
A few months ago, on an uncharacteristically warm day in early March, I did a REALLY fun photoshoot with my darling friends Nikhil and Deanna. I expressed I wanted a few new photos for my website. We started out on Nikhil's windy terrace, where it was much chillier than down on the streets (thus the blanket) and then went downtown and took some fun shots in the village, with final photos in my leotard on picturesque Gay St (not photographed is the crowd that stood and watched during the last set).
It was such a special day with warmth, laughter and friendship. As I move through this challenging time, I like to look back on these photos and think of that day. They bring me joy, they make me feel strong. I remember the tear jerking laughter we all experienced that day from purely being silly and together. But most of all, when looking at these photos, I realize I really like and love the person who is going through the journey, me.